Woman with a Dark Heart

There exists in the trade a quiet expectation, rarely spoken yet universally understood, that a painter who finds a worthy subject will return to it some three to five times before its interest is exhausted. Monet gave us his cathedrals at Rouen, the same stone façade rendered through the shifting hours until the architecture dissolved into pure atmosphere. Thiebaud spent a long career arranging pastries upon their counters, a single glazed donut becoming a meditation on light, pigment, and the American appetite. The logic is sound. A familiar form permits the hand to wander, freed from the labor of invention, attending instead to the subtleties of touch and tone.

A surreal painting featuring a naked woman with red hair, seated at a table with a green cloth. She holds a hand up, surrounded by flowing tentacles. In the background, a window lets in light, and a painting of a woman with a pearl earring is visible on the wall. The scene includes various objects like candles and an artifact on the table.
Woman with a Dark Heart, Rob Medley

A difficulty presents itself, however, when the chosen subject possesses no form to begin with.
The shoggoth was H.P. Lovecraft’s answer to a question few thinkers care to pose: what shape does horror take when shape itself has become the enemy? In the frozen record of At the Mountains of Madness, these creatures appear as heaving masses of black, iridescent protoplasm, bred by the Elder Things as beasts of burden and stripped of any fixed anatomy. Eyes form upon the surface and sink again. Limbs rise, perform their labor, and are reabsorbed. The thing is a viscous congeries of bubbles that throws up whatever organ the moment demands, then forgets it ever held one. To render such a creature is to paint the refusal of permanence, a study in the impossibility of study.

So one returns to the problem of the series. Tea and Tentacles stood as the first of these shoggoth studies, painted before an audience at the Akron Zoo Renaissance Festival, where the creature wore an almost domestic charm. Woman with a Dark Heart is the second. A third waits in the wings, concept defined, awaiting the horror of being brought to life. Three studies of a thing that cannot hold its own outline for the span of a heartbeat, the proposition borders on the absurd, which is precisely why it merits the attempt.

The composition descends from Johannes Vermeer, who remains the first name in my private canon, with Bob Ross holding second place and Larry Elmore the third. An honorable mention belongs to Han van Meegeren, the gutsy Dutchman whose teachers and critics pronounced him a mere imitator, a hand without an idea of its own. He answered that verdict with the longest insult in the history of the trade. Laying his own name aside, he painted Vermeers so persuasive that the foremost connoisseurs of the age wept over them as lost masterpieces, and one such forgery he sold to Hermann Göring himself, taking the Reichsmarschall’s looted fortune and leaving the man a worthless canvas for his trouble. The war ended, and that sale earned him a charge of collaboration grave enough to cost a man his life. To save his neck he confessed the grander crime, that the prized “Vermeer” had come from his own brush, and he proved it by painting another under guard while the prosecutors looked on. Half the country toasted the rogue who had swindled a Nazi. The older Dutch, who had endured the occupation in earnest, hold a colder view, and count him a collaborator who grew fat while his neighbors went hungry. A scoundrel, perhaps, though a scoundrel with nerve, and nerve is the rarest pigment on any palette.

The particular ancestor here is the Woman Holding a Balance, painted around 1664 and now resident at the National Gallery in Washington. In that quiet interior a woman stands at a window, an empty scale poised between her fingers, while behind her hangs a painting of the Last Judgment. The reading offered by generations of scholars concerns the weighing of souls, the measure of a life set against eternity, temperance triumphant over the pearls and gold strewn across her table.

A woman in a blue cloak and white headscarf stands beside a table, holding scales with a serene expression, surrounded by luxurious objects and an ornate painting in a dimly lit room.
Woman Holding A Balance, Johannes Vermeer


That theme of the weighed soul reaches back far older than the Dutch Republic. The Egyptians knew it as the psychostasia, the ceremony described in the Book of the Dead, wherein the heart of the deceased was set upon the scale against the feather of Ma’at. A heart grown heavy with wrongdoing tipped the balance, and the devourer waited beneath the beam to consume whatever soul had failed. The title of this canvas takes its meaning there. A dark heart is a heavy heart, and a heavy heart does not balance.

Where Vermeer placed the Last Judgment, this version sets a Solomonic seal in red, the old grimoire geometry that claimed to bind spirits and command the unseen. The window survives, its leaded grid admitting the same disciplined light that the Delft master guarded so jealously. A smaller framed picture hangs within the larger scene, and the face caught in its gold border is the Girl with a Pearl Earring herself, lifted from the Mauritshuis, which I visited early in 2026, and pressed into service here, a figure in blue and a single luminous pearl quoted in homage to Vermeer’s own habit of setting paintings inside paintings. The balance remains. The heart, however, has gone to shadow, and the formless thing has come in through the dark.

A close-up portrait of a girl wearing a blue and yellow turban, with a pearl earring, set against a dark background.
Girl with a Pearl Earring, Johannes Vermeer

This one resisted the hand for a long while, and the canvas carries the evidence of that struggle beneath its final coat. Modern imaging has taught us a great deal about Vermeer’s own changes of mind, for technical study has shown that he reworked his pictures more than once, adjusting the composition beneath the visible surface until the meaning satisfied him. Should anyone ever pass this newer canvas beneath a similar lamp, the scan would disclose a second figure, complete, standing nearer the left edge, and over it a moment of genuine doubt. The shoggoth now occupies that ground. A failed form lies buried under the one creature in all of literature that exists to devour form. The accident proved more honest than any plan.

Woman with a Dark Heart. Acrylic on canvas, 24 by 40 inches. $500. The second of the shoggoth studies.
The void was never empty. Find the path within.

Midnight in the Sacred Grove

Some symbols arrive on the canvas without much negotiation. The triquetra is one of them. I had the knot in mind. The trees had other ideas, and we met somewhere in the middle.

A Trinity Knot Grown from the Wood

The composition is straightforward. Three trees, three boughs, one sign. Their branches arch and cross to form the threefold mark that pre-Christian Europe carved on its standing stones, and that the early monks of Iona later set into the margins of their gospels. Beneath the boughs, the grove deepens into shadow. A pale sky holds behind the branches, somewhere between moonrise and the last hour of dusk. A pair of crows keep their watch on the central crossing, as crows tend to do.

I did not set out to paint a forest. Once the first arc began to feel like bark, the rest of the painting fell into agreement.

A mystical forest scene with intertwined trees and a large moon in the background, featuring deep blues and purples.

A Note on the Symbol

The triquetra, from the Latin tri-quetrus meaning “three-cornered,” is older than the histories that try to claim it. It appears on Norse runestones, in the Book of Kells, on the bracteates of Migration-era Germania, and on Indian temple carvings well before any of these borrowings became fashionable. Three interlocked vesicas. One unbroken line. Whatever a given century decided it meant (sun, moon, earth; maiden, mother, crone; body, mind, spirit), the geometry held. The symbol kept its silence and let the centuries do the talking.

For the Quiet Hour

This is a piece for a contemplative wall. Above an altar. A reading nook. A writing desk where the lamp goes on before the sun goes down. It rewards the long look. The longer one stays with it, the more the grove gives up. A moss line. A path one might already have walked.

The Particulars

Original acrylic on oval canvas. Heavily textured ground; the bark and the earth carry a physical depth that flat reproduction cannot quite catch. Signed verso.

Acquiring the Painting

Available through Kreative Forge. Originals tend to leave at shows, so an early inquiry is the surer road. Limited prints can be arranged should the original have already found its grove.

Reflections

The moon gives light borrowed from the sun. Stand long enough beside still water on a clear night and one discovers the water gives that light back again, twice removed from its source and stranger for the journey. Reflection began with that small astonishment.

The work is acrylic on canvas, eighteen by twenty inches, executed in traditional brush and airbrush together. The lunar disc was laid in with the moon’s actual palette: cool greys of the highlands, iron-tinged browns of the maria, the faint warmth where regolith meets the observing eye. Over those true colors went a wash of reflected atmospheric light, the way she appears to anyone who has stood beneath her on a humid evening, haloed and softened by the air through which she is seen.

An artistic depiction of a large full moon illuminating a dark sky, with fluffy clouds and subtle stars, reflecting on a calm body of water surrounded by lush trees.

Below the treeline, the water carries her likeness. Look closely. Her image there is threefold.

The threefold moon is no recent invention. Hesiod gave Hecate three faces at the crossroads of the world. The Romans honored Diana Trivia where three paths met. Apuleius set into the mouth of Isis the great speech of self-naming, the silver crescent her chief crown. The triplicity of the lunar phase, waxing through full to waning, has been read by serious students of comparative religion as a single grammar spoken in many tongues.

Robert Graves drew these threads together in The White Goddess (1948), proposing that the threefold moon describes the great arc of feminine becoming: maiden in the waxing crescent, mother in the full disc, elder in the waning sliver. One need not concede the whole of his argument to feel the truth of the figure. The phases are observable. Their correspondence to the seasons of a life requires only that one has lived a little.

So the painting hides nothing. The single moon above is the body of the night sky. The three moons below are her phases gathered into one still water, and that water is the contemplative mind, which sees what the eye has seen and recognizes the pattern beneath the pattern.

There is a reason the mirror has always stood for the inner eye. What the world hands us in its turning, the mind hands back as image. Reflection in this older sense is the foundational act of contemplative practice. To stand at the edge of a dark lake and see the moon doubled is to be reminded that the world is twice given: once in fact, once in the silence behind the eye.

The water in the painting is calm enough to receive her, troubled enough to render her in motion. The triple reflection wavers a little. So does the soul that beholds her.

Reflection is offered to anyone who finds in such things a quiet companion to long thought. She asks nothing of the wall she hangs upon. The moon never has.

Acrylic on canvas, 18 × 20 inches. Original painting by Rob Medley. Available; inquiries welcome.

The Dance


Before the churches rose, before the calendars named the months, women walked the turning earth on bare feet and felt a pulse beneath them older than any catechism. This painting belongs to that elder country.

A woman dances at midnight among violet blossoms and dark loam, the ankles bound in thin chains. The damp ground below quickens with wildflowers and ribbons of teal brushwork, each stroke a small wind drawn through grass.

The Dance

The piece takes its subject from “The Quickening,” a song from Shattered Goddess. It attempts in pigment what the music attempts in voice and string: a return to the pre-modern sense of the earth as a living thing. The old faiths understood this. So did every midwife, herbalist, and practitioner who held the earth sacred.

Acrylic on canvas, 30 × 40 inches